Well, everybody, this is it. My heart is pounding with a zillion different emotions right now, because this is the last letter home I will write as a missionary. I remember hearing people say that two years went by really fast for them as they neared the end, and I would think, "Man, I don't know what they're talking about, it definitely feels like Ive been out a year, no less!" But right now, at this moment, I can say that I don't know where the time went. It's been fantastic, on the whole.
My immediate family wrote really good last letters; I don't know if i can measure up. :D I'll tell you what I'll be doing for the next few days, I guess. Oh, before that I have one thing to gloat about: Korea is ahead of the USA on time, so while all you in America have 5 days till you see me, I only have 4 days till I see you.:D Living in the future definitely has its benefits!
Today for Pday me and Elder Luker (one of the office elders here) are going to buy some sweet Korean suits for 60 bucks. Then we're going to hang out with other missionaries for the rest of Pday. Tonight we are going to dinner with a girl who we baptized yesterday and her friends from the church that referred her. By the way, the baptism went really well yestderday! Her given name is Jinhae, and she's 16 American age. She's doing really well, and she has so much support from her friends that referred her and from Elder Yoon that I'm sure she'll do great. Elder Yoon baptized her and she'll get confirmed next week; it's sad I didn't get to see that but it's ok. So we'll go to dinner with them tonight. Tomorrow we're picking up the new missionaries (who don't go home till 2015! Haha!), and the next day is transfers. So I'm going with Elder Lee Gyeomjin, my last companion, to visit some members from his favorite ward and my first ward. Then that night he has the final interview with President. The next day we'll probably do some shopping in the afternoon and I'll have my final interview with President before the final dinner and testimony. Then on Friday morning we head to the airport! Now I'm getting really excited. :D It'll be a good week. I'll try not to spend too much money. :D
As I think about my mission, there are definitely things I could have done better. I've spent too much time judging myself for my weaknesses and mistakes though, so I think today I'll just say that I think I did a dang good job. :D But seriously, I think I served a really good mission in that it wasn't perfect but that I tried to see how I could improve all the time, and I did my best to fix what I could. And I always, always tried to be obedient to the rules and the commandments, even now, I'm still doing that. John 14:15 says, "If ye love me, keep my commandments." I think that obedience is one of the best ways to show our love for God, and I really love Him. Looking back over what I've done, I can say with confidence that my actions reflect that.
Being on a mission really makes you realize what the important things are. Family. Love. Hard work. The Lord. Living what you believe. There are things that bring you temporary happiness, like music or video games or sports or a bunch of other things. I love those things, but what will give you permanent and lasting happiness are the things I said above. I hope and pray that I won't get swallowed up in the worldly things and go right back to the way I was, becoming an entertainment zombie or a slave to study or be eaten up by materialism again. Please help me not to do that, everybody. I think that more than anything else is what I fear. But I have faith that as long as I maintain my relationship with the Lord that everything will be ok.
I feel torn in half right now, really. My heart does. But someday I'll be back here, I can just feel it. I can't see myself living here, but my future is somehow linked to Korea. I'll be back someday.
Well, enough rambling. :D I know this church is true, and more importantly than that, God and His Son Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost really live, love us, and guide us. It's our job to seek them in our lives and apply their teachings to our daily actions. And when we do, that's when we're truly happy. I really know those things and I can never deny them without some pretty serious things happening. If I ever do, somebody please punch me in the face or something. :D Just kidding, that won't happen. I love you all, and I'm excited to see you in only 4 days. :D
Love, Elder Matt Dean
Final note from Matt's Mom:
Matt comes home this Friday, the 7th, and will speak in the Chapel Hills Ward (1290 N. Church Street) at 11:00 on Sunday, December 9th. Please join us at our home (1208 E. 2350 N.) afterwards for an Open House to visit with Matt. Thank you to everyone who has supported Matt and our family while he served his mission - we love and appreciate all of you, and hope to see you on Sunday!!